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Monday’s. This school term, it’s the day of the week that I dread the most. I finally understand Monday blues. But I woke up today, and had time to center myself and allowed myself to feel thankful. It’s Canadian Thanksgiving afterall.

I’m an observer. I’ve learned that people are not always what they appear to be. I’ve come across two-week friendships, people with ulterior motives who only seek human contact when mutual-benefits are provided, name droppers and shot callers. It’s almost never “you get what you give.” Although I still live with that motto because I believe in good karma and common courtesy, I’ve learned to trust my instincts and not my heart. I’d rather be alone than be around people I don’t trust. It’s always have been that way, and it shall remain that way.

With that said, I really feel that I am one of the luckiest ducks in the world. The love for my family (the people that I actually consider family), and the value of my friends (the very small handful that stuck by me through my roughest times) cannot be described in words. I only want what’s real – real people with real feelings… and I am blessed to have that. I stopped looking at the meager number of people I have in my life, and began to look at the people. It nearly took my breath away. When you stop looking at what you don’t have, and begin looking at what you do have, you will find that you have more than you need. There are moments where I want more (like yesterday… because I’m an emotional rollercoaster these days), but I’ve never mistaken those wants as needs.

Although I don’t show my feelings, and seldomly let people in. Once I love, I love hard… and I love true. Just keep it real and the world is your oyster.

I should pay attention in class now.

Eat well. Until next post. Anon.